For several years now, I have been affirming that everything always work out in my best interest. Sometimes, that good has come packaged in very unattractive packaging and the first response is usually to reject the gift. These past few months have offered such packages to me, but I was forced to accept them.
Seven months after my water heater broke and messed up my house, I am still working through the restoration process. Insurance settlements, Hurricane Irma, a sick contractor, all played into the drama of delaying the completion.
Commodes were backing up off and on over a month and the plumbers could not find the problem. The new floors were flooded as they were being worked on, and my arms hurt from mopping up so much water. I will spare you the details of what was showing up in the shower stall.
Thankfully, I have been a Nurse for several years and a member of a rapid response team that helps out with community cleanups, so I am use to handling messy situations. However, having this stuff show up in my shower was almost enough to push me over the edge.
Then came the emotional pain of family traumas and personal disappointments with people very close to me.
Add to that the challenge of working through the MKMMA and Go90Grow programs while not having a quiet or clear space to work and sleeping in some very strange positions and place within the home.
Emotional, mental and physical fatigue makes it difficult at times to stay focused and as energetic as I would like to be at times.
It would have been very easy for me to quit and wait until the next time, but what if something else happened then? No, Quitting was not an option. Yes, I had to slow down at times, but I knew that if I kept moving, even slowly, I would finish the course.
And so I have continued.
Throughout all of this, I have been observing my thoughts. feelings and actions very closely. I am amazed at how detached I was from all of this. Yes, it was happening around me, but I did feel that it was happening to me.
My constant question was and still is “where is the good in this, what lessons do I need to learn?”
The answer… drum roll please…….. I am able to see how much I have grown, and to me, that’s priceless.
Others around me often remark about my patience and understanding of those who contributed to delaying the process. I accept the compliments with a “thank you” and keep smiling.
I can see light at the end of the tunnel as the project nears completion.